A while back I had attended a healing workshop and something about one particular person made me quite uncomfortable. After really tossing it around in my mind and in my body I decided to let me mentor know that this person had transgressed and that I felt unsafe in an environment that should make me feel completely safe. Unfortunately, my mentor told me things about this work that we do and how some things can come up which may not be real, in other words, she totally gaslighted me!
This spiritual/emotional gaslighting is something to be conscious and aware of this week. It’s not only others who gaslight us, sometimes we do it to ourselves. There is internal and external pressure and expectation to be positive, to look at the bright side, to say that everything happens for a reason and that everything will be alright. These are destinations and we have to journey to get to these – to look back and see how the universe conspired to get us where we got to. And in that journey we go through emotional upheaval, we go through hardship and challenges, and life wants us to experience all of it so we can savour the sweetness of the destination. When we bypass these steps we are suppressing and repressing rather than releasing, which happens when we take every step.
This week expect to feel some emotions rising up – could be internal criticism or external (and we all know how Virgos can be touchy about being criticised) – because you are feeling unworthy or not good enough in some way. Don’t bypass this emotional tide, don’t gaslight yourself and don’t allow anyone else to gaslight you either. Sit with what comes up even if it is a little uncomfortable and you will find that the discomfort will pass and you will feel better for it.
The universe wants you to know that you are worthy – you are good enough, smart enough, nice enough, beautiful enough, bright enough and that the universe sees that in you, even if sometimes you are unable to <3.